[瞧電影] Howl

      看似美好的年代，卻醜陋不堪地叫人難以忍受。不願意視若無睹，也不是不知不覺，於是放縱流連於毒品、性、或是不得不的頹喪之間。放聲嚎囂，看似低俗的文字，卻是最真實的靈魂；是衝動也冷靜地看著，世界持續上演著荒誕。這是我所感受到的艾倫金斯堡（Allen Ginsberg)，一個看似瘋狂卻真實坦誠的詩人！



       電影從一段朗誦開始，用訪談與詩句作為劇情的主線，讓人們走進那時的美國、那個世代的壓抑，以及世俗的眼光。那些自以為正義其實卻狹隘的心胸與眼光。片中更以動畫描繪詩句的意境，讓人更容易進入卻也限制了想像的空間。


      看完之後，我不停在想，寫，是一種抒發。對愛情、對家人、對社會、對生活、對朋友、對自己，而在這首《Howl》裡，盡是這些，叫我好是佩服。並不為了求得誰認同、不在乎旁人懂是不懂，只忠於自己，只為自己而寫。這叫我重新思考！我的生命本來就不在你的眼中不在我的口中，更不在我的笑罵你的憐憫之間。那些看似存在卻虛假的，統統不重要。愛也好恨也好，一切，只與自我呼應，這大大激勵了我，寫。我還要寫。


以下是節錄艾倫金斯堡的 《Howl》
【Carl Solomon! I'm with you in Rockland

         where you're madder than I am

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you must feel strange

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you imitate the shade of my mother

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you've murdered your twelve secretaries

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you laugh at this invisible humour

I'm with you in Rockland

         where we are great writers on the same dreadful typewriter

I'm with you in Rockland

         where your condition has become serious and is reported on the radio

I'm with you in Rockland

         where the faculties of the skull no longer admit the worms of the senses

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you drink the tea of the breasts of the spinsters of Utica

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you pun on the bodies of your nurses the harpies of the Bronx

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you scream in a straightjacket that you're losing the game of actual pingpong of the abyss

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you bang on the catatonic piano the soul is innocent and immortal it should never die ungodly in an armed madhouse

I'm with you in Rockland

         where fifty more shocks will never return your soul to its body again from its pilgrimage to a cross in the void

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you accuse your doctors of insanity and plot the Hebrew socialist revolution against the fascist national Golgotha

I'm with you in Rockland

         where you will split the heavens of Long Island and resurrect your living human Jesus from the superhuman tomb

I'm with you in Rockland

         where there are twentyfive thousand mad comrades all together singing the final stanzas of the Internationale

I'm with you in Rockland

         where we hug and kiss the United States under our bedsheets the United States that coughs all night and won't let us sleep

I'm with you in Rockland

         where we wake up electrified out of the coma by our own souls' airplanes roaring over the roof they've come to drop angelic bombs the hospital illuminates itself   imaginary walls collapse   O skinny legions run outside   O starry-spangled shock of mercy the eternal war is here   O victory forget your underwear we're free

I'm with you in Rockland

         in my dreams you walk dripping from a sea-journey on the highway across America in tears to the door of my cottage in the Western night】